Y1S1, 1st week :(

my degree's first week lesson was just finished...

well, i admit that degree study is not really easy for me...

and when i think i have to study hard like this for 3 more years...

this really make me crazy, i think so.

recently...my friend asked me stress or not...

apparently "YES" in my heart

though i say "ok" in my mouth...

sorry for my dishonest...i hate it also...

but really sorry because i just want to cover my stress...><

how to say stress?

well, let my timetable tells you...

see...

totally 7 subjects in my degree's first semester!!!damn!

even more...there are 2 days i have to study until 8pm at night!!!

i will damn tired at this time... ><

and the most suffering is the friday class till 5pm...

this makes me have to face the problem when i want to back to my hometown...

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do you know how i back to my hometown?

ok, i tell you...

first, i have to take the bus from kampar to kl for about 3 hours...

and when i reach the puduraya bus station at kl...

i have to take the LRT to go to the TBS at tasik selatan for about half-hour...

and reach there, buy bus ticket and take the bus back to MUAR for about 2 and half an hour...

like this and like that...so just can reach my hometown, MUAR...

totally about 6 hours!!! T___T

now, you know what is the suffer for me...T,T

in my degree course, Chemistry seems got many awesome students...

and seems all of their english are so good...pronounce also nice what...

this makes me who is a person that has a low english level...

feel damn self-abased...

my self-confidence becomes more and more less...

i hate myself like this!!!

besides, some lecturers i met in this first week, all seems strictly...

oh my goshhh...scared ><

even got one says that he had failed 40++ among 140++ students before...

and the lab session even has to submit the addtional pre-lab report...

and more tutorial would come as well on next week...

assignments...presentation...reports...

will be coming soon...:(

i think there are even more strange things that i have to study, memorise...

PHYSICS, the most i scare for...also appears in my first semester of degree also...

the complicated concepts and calculations are hard for me...

a girl who has a slowly operating brain...

i hate this stupid and has the limited memory brain!!!damn!

i really envy those who can master this confusing subject...really

T__T

what the hell for such suffering and stressful life =__=

yes, really like a hell!

a life that will drag me to the death, i think.

indeed, degree study is a challenge for me...

is a new life for me as well...

i have to study more and more hard...

put more and more effort in my study...

and stop watching my favourite cartoon---"ONE PIECE"!!!

arrgghh!!!

i really miss my mum and my family!!!

♥♥♥photo that i take with my mum during last semester break♥♥♥

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥miss you, mama♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥